I've been steadily losing weight - albeit slowly - for the last few months. I haven't written daily, but maybe I should. Even if its a quick 3-liner to talk about how I'm feeling, what's on my mind, etc.
Today I am back "on" the wagon. I spent the weekend pretty much doing what I wanted which included eating M&Ms, cheesecake from the Cheesecake Factory, bread at almost every meal or breaded/fried things, drinking beer and not exercising for one tiny second. From Friday to Monday has been a free-for-all.
I feel AWFUL.
I know why.
So you may ask yourself, why do I do this to myself? Honestly - its because I've lived my life with processed food, sugar, and since the age of 21, beer. It's hard to just give it all up forever. Many times I feel like food is no longer enjoyable. I don't mean that literally - I still like to eat. But if I want to eat something hearty and yummy, I have to do a LOT of prep. No more popping round to the grocery for a rotisserie chicken. Even too much sodium makes me feel icky these days. Sometimes i just need to let go of my restrictions and live. Then I pay the price, realize that its better in my gluten-free low-carb world and I go about my business.
So that's where I am.