Monday, October 5, 2015

It's a week later and I've met him once.

My trainer, I mean. But I swear it was for a good reason. I haven't lifted weights in, literally, ten years. Anything makes me sore. I was supposed to go back Wednesday and I didn't because I was sore and I didn't want to end up hating it. I was going to go Thursday and I decided to go swimming with my daughter instead. Finally, it was Friday, and I was too busy at work to make it happen.

So there it is. I went once. BUT: I'm going again tomorrow, and I will make it twice this week come hell or high water. Once the first week, twice the second week, who knows what the third week will bring? :)

It's OK, you know. It's OK to go when I can and when I feel like it. This isn't about being skinny or getting crazy about being at the gym daily pumping the irons. It's about building muscle, getting strong, learning something new, and taking time for ME. I love that part.

Hold me to it.

Wednesday, September 30, 2015

When a comment makes you think really hard. . .

When a comment makes you think really hard. . .then you know it was worth putting the post out there.

Have you ever read something that trigger such a realization or revelation that you literally heard that needle-scratching-record sound in your head?  You think to yourself - wait, WHAT?

An old friend that is new again (ha ha) made a comment on my last blog post that threw me for a loop. Specifically, she said the following:
"Why do you want to be a blogger? Or: why does it bother you not to be blogging regularly?"
I cannot answer that question.  I have thought about it a lot.  Ad nauseum, in fact.  I don't have an answer!

The resurrection of this blog.

Oh, Hi there.

So it's September 30, 2015 and it's almost exactly a year until I turn 40. This blog was always about Fixing mahself before I turn 40 because truly, I was a hot mess in my 20s and 30s.

Unfortunately, life got in the way and I faced some pretty serious (for ME) issues that needed to be dealt with before I could spend time writing on this blog.

I hope I'm back to writing. I like to write, I like to put my thoughts on "paper." But I've tried a paper journal many times to no avail - I end up applying my own crazy brand of perfectionism and it goes nowhere.

A couple of notes. I have turned off auto-posting of comments because the internet is always that lovely anonymous means of communication where some people think it's completely OK to post whatever they want without having any idea what the impact of their words might be. To that I will refer you to the meme at the left. Copied from the internet, where it was posted a gazillion times and I cannot find any reference to it's creator.

It's perfectly OK to not read this blog if you don't like what I have to say or think I'm boring :) I'm OK with never having a lot of followers.

Moving on!

Today is Day 1 of meeting my new fitness trainer. I have one last thing to "fix" before I turn 40 and that's my physical fitness. I have fixed my career (more on that later), I have fixed my personal life (way more on that later), I've learned to live with my current state of work/life balance, and I feel good 99 % of the time. So Imma get strong and more muscular. This has taken months of trying to find the motivation. I don't really need another thing that is a time commitment. But I've managed to make myself a priority in other ways, so why not work on this too. At some point I got to that all familiar stage of PUT UP OR SHUT UP. Here's another meme that sums the issue up (right).

I will let you know how Day 1 goes! Here's to becoming strong!

<3 SW